So thats it. Alex needs her space, so I'm giving it to her. I've accepted the fact that shes single and can do whatever she feels like doing. I have no business in her personal life. 
Its clear she has moved on, so its only right for me to put all of this behind me as well. I got extremely hurt, but I will survive.
I want to make it clear that I still care deeply about Alex and am always here for her as a friend. even if she doesn't want to see me or talk to me. I was her friend before any of this and I wont let this ruin our friendship. I just hope she can understand and feel comfortable around me.

Anyways..
I'm really far behind in a few classes right now which is nice. I need to man up and just do everything I need to.
I'm going to Minus The Bear tomorrow night with a few friends so that should be enjoyable.
I'm also going to Alex Linden's party on saturday which should be a nice change of pace. I need to loosen up, i haven't gotten drunk in awhile.

I wish it wasn't as windy so I could go for a nice long bike ride.

So the last two weeks was our huge sale of the year at my work. I've been tired every single day and am so worn out from it; I'm so glad its over. I also feel like I'm really far behind in most of my classes at school right now which is pretty sweet.
Otherwise I'm feel pretty good about most things as of right now.
This is going to be a short entry but I do want to say Alexandra Angelina Perez is one of my best friends and she means the world to me.

Chinese food sounds pretty good right about now.

I feel so tired and worn out from work and everything else
when i take time to stop and think about things i get down on myself and it really sucks. i hate this
i wish i actually had things to talk about, but nobody really reads this damn thing anyways so it doesnt really matter

oh and im going to modern life is war's last madison show tonight so hopefully that will get my mind off of things

So last week Alex called it quits. This is incredibly hard for me to get over, I've never had such strong feelings toward anyone before. I'm still very confused and don't think feelings like that just vanish so quickly. I feel terrible because I keep pushing this situation with her and she doesn't deserve any of my bullshit. I really just wish things were back to normal again and pretend this never happened. Alex is the one person who I will never get sick or tired of, no matter how she acts or treats me. I care about her so much and is the only person i want to be with. I told her I would change the way I  argue about a lot of stupid little things and have to be right about everything, not just for her, but because I hate it myself too. I just want her to give me a chance to actually show it.
I hope I still get to see her often, no matter what the outcome of all of this is.

I really thought we had a good shot at this.

I want it to warm up so I can get on my bike and never stop peddling.

Shitty day, shitty night, semi-shitty week
Shitty LJ post

So this morning my mom found this folded up piece of paper next to my jacket that had hookah cleaning tips on it and freaked out. She woke me up yelling saying "WHATS THIS BONG!?! THIS IS DRUG PARAPHERNALIA,! IS THIS WHAT YOU'VE BEEN WASTING YOUR MONEY ON!?" I told her it wasn't mine and went back to sleep and when she got home today I told her that its for flavored tobacco and she felt really dumb after she actually read what it was.


me and alex are doing very well, i couldn't be happier
i'm not original and cant express how i feel with words, but this is for you alex

dear alexandra angelina perez,
I love you, and in more ways than one.
As a best friend.
As a girlfriend.
As someone who I can trust.
As someone who is unconditional.

I love you, truly, purely, equally, consistently, and on a large scale.

I love you.

love,
evan james harris

Fuck you Zelda for DS, you are so frustrating.
Fuck you microeconomics and precalc.
Fuck you Willy Bikes.
Fuck you winter.

that is all

Man, this weather is bullshit. These days off of school are pretty nice, except I feel like a pile of shit for not doing anything substantial today. I met clint and shan and went to the apt for awhile which sucked walking in the snow on my way home. Thank god I drank a Redline, the ultimate energy rush.

I spent last weekend with Alex at her dorms in Milwaukee, which was nice. I'm feeling really good about things between us. By far the happiest I've been with someone. Alex's friend Sarah took pictures of us with an old 4 x 5 camera which was pretty cool (apparently they are really good) and she also chopped the majority of my hair off. The last time I had  this short of hair was like 4 years ago so it feels pretty weird.

I'm getting so sick of my manager lately. He changed my schedule from working 3 days a week to like once every other weekend without telling me. And of course when I talk to him about it he tries to make it seem like I was in the wrong for asking about it. I have done absolutely nothing wrong and he never gives me legitimate reasons about anything.
It seems like every time i write on here I bitch about him


I just want this week to end so i can spend some time with Alex. I don't know what to do with myself

I woke up this morning to hear that all Madison schools were closed. It was definetly nice being able to sleep in till 12:30 and not doing anything all day, except go to work for a few hours. My manager was being a dick to me today because I didnt know how to fix something on my bike. He said it isn't right to put my problems on other people when all I did was ask for some help. Seriously, what a dick.

I'm really excited to stay with Alex at her dorm this weekend, it should be fun. Booze, buds, and art kids. hah

I feel like my entries in here aren't substantial..
Oh well

Started second semester today. I found out i didn't do too bad in most of my classes which is nice, but I feel like this semester classes are going to be a lot harder.
Lately my parents have been pulling the whole "you need to figure out what you're going to do after high school" a lot and its really aggravating. I still have plenty of time so they need to back off.

On a brighter note, I couldn't be happier with Alex. I haven't had a terrible day since I've been with her. I could sit here for days and talk about how nice she is and how much i love her, but for now I'll just post some nice pictures.

Its been awhile since I've had one of these accounts. Its not how i remember it at all, and I'm very confused. Oh well
Today will be a do-nothing day, maybe play my DS Alex made me buy and probably hangout with gracie
Too bad Alex is going back to Milwaukee today


i guess im going to the veil of maya show at shorewood now